Hate it when it happens
Sunday, June 3rd, 2007
‘Kelan ka ba babalik?’
‘Hindi ko pa po alam eh, depende kasi sa work ni Poms. Basta pag may chance na makabalik ako, I will go home.’
And then I kissed her and hug her tight.
‘Ma, alis na ako’.
‘Anak, mag-iingat ka ha. I will always pray for your safety everyday…’
Without looking at her eyes, I bid goodbye. Right at this very moment, I am still suppressing the emotions I feel, leaving my family behind whom I loved so dearly. It happened 9 months ago and it’s happening again. Indeed, human emotions are so powerful that the Nature has ever given to mankind.
It was like yesterday that I just walked down the aisle, chose to live with the person whom God has blessed me. And is seems like yesterday too that Poms just left for a foreign country to prepare a bright future for us, to secure a comfortable life for our future children - a discernment we humbly asked from Above.
Ang bilis ng takbo ng panahon. Sa sobrang dami ng pangyayari sa buhay hindi na namamalayan ang mga pagbabago. Like most people say, ‘for every joy in the pages of your life, little sacrifices spring.’ My attachment to my family especially to my mother is a gift that something God has bestowed upon me. And with Poms as I entered a new chapter in my life is an even amazing gift to keep my life going. Ang hirap pagdaanan pero madaling intindihin.
Did I mean goodbye? No. For my family, it’s a goodbye that means ‘I’ll just go somewhere else and I’ll be back in a while.’ It’s happening again. I felt the same thing few days before my wedding. Suddenly, life became a mysterious and unstoppable cycle just keeps on going. Like a part in a theatrical play, every scene closes to a new chapter. And what it seems to me a like new chapter is none other than even better and brighter surprises in life. I want to stick with optimism because it’s the rock that hinders the flow of my tears in the river of loneliness. Nalulungkot ako but I try not to. Gusto ko ilabas pero ayokong umiyak.
And so, not a seeing my family for not sure how long is a sacrifice that I bravely encounter. Isipin ko na lang, nasa kabilang bahay lang ang pamilya ko.
Reuniting with my husband whom I loved so much is the start of our life together as one. Blessed by the church and witnessed by all Christians, we will face the challenges ahead of us in a land where God has purposely brought us.
With Christ as the only third party in our relationship, how brave can we be?
